Since she was little, Amanda Palmer felt sure about one thing in her
future: she wanted to be a rockstar. Yet she was a late bloomer in the
music industry: she founded her first band, The Dresden Dolls, when she
was 25, and recorded her first album with a major record company at 28.
Prior to that, she had already graduated, lived in Germany for a while
and tried many different jobs, from the typical jobs like working in a
café, to more risqué ways of earning a living, such as working as a
stripper. The most bizarre of all her jobs lasted for around five years,
when she was a street artist in Boston, in Harvard Square. She wore a
wedding dress and became a ‘human statue’, a job which took her to
several cities around the world. So, having spent years standing on a
milk crate with a hat at her feet, waiting for passers-by to throw a
coin in for a moment of human connection, Amanda learned a lot about the
art of asking, a recurring theme throughout her whole life. The essence
of almost all human contact lies in the art of asking, a constituent
component of any relationship. Even if we don’t realise it, we all build
and maintain our relationships by implicitly asking one another: will you help me? Can I trust you? Or are you going to screw me over? Above all, what we are asking is: do you love me?
As
much as asking is a very important part of human existence, we all
struggle to do it: what holds us back, is our fear of being vulnerable,
of appearing weak and being rejected, or that we are not worthy of the
help that we are asking for. The possibility that we may be told no,
should be implicit in the act of asking: if we don’t give the other
person the option to say no, we aren’t really asking them, more like
begging and demanding. Anyone who is able to ask without shame does so
from a position of cooperating with others, instead of putting
themselves in competition with them. Asking for help with shame attached
to it is the equivalent of begging and putting the other person in a
position of power over us. Asking in a condescending manner, waiting for
a yes, implies that we feel we are in a position of power over the
other person. In fact, wherever there is a power-play, there cannot be a
true exchange.
Asking for help with gratitude means recognising
the power that two people have to help one another. The art of asking
needs to be accompanied by gratitude and a spirit of collaboration. This
is an art that can be learned, studied, and perfected, but it is based
on improvisation, because there are no real rules to it. This is why her
performances as a statue taught Amanda Palmer a lot: the relationship
between a street artist and her public has a different set of rules
compared to the one between a theatre performer and a paying audience.
On the street, there is a higher factor of risk and trust: nobody buys a
ticket, nobody willingly chooses to be there. Street artists either
make it or fail, depending on their ability to put on a show and
entertain the public in unexpected situations. As Brené Brown wrote in
her book “Daring Greatly”, the idea that vulnerability means weakness,
is a dangerous myth in modern society, because it makes us spend our
lives pushing each other away to protect ourselves from ever feeling
vulnerable, while also feeling contempt and dislike for anyone who is
less able or less willing to hide their feelings. As a human statue,
Amanda was incredibly vulnerable, but she was also able to build a sort
of trust in her street audience, because she felt that those people
would have instinctively protected her, and this open and radical trust
in others made them become her allies. Asking is an act of faith, the
real risk is that we might choose to disconnect or might be afraid of
one another. Modern culture has instilled the idea in us that asking for
help is the equivalent of admitting we have failed, but the truth is,
that if we look at the most powerful and most admired people in the
world, we can identify a common trait in each one of them: behind every
great work of art, successful start-up and revolutionary change, there
is always a story of exchange, both monetary and otherwise, and hidden
patrons who have been explicitly and creatively asked for help and
support. Every successful artist and entrepreneur in history has a
mentor, a teacher, or a patron, who has lent them money, or other kinds
of tangible and intangible resources. Even Steve Jobs had to ask his
parents for help when he needed to use their garage in which he founded
his little start-up!
